PROJECT DEVELOPMENT

For the development of this project I let a more "fluid" and less set method guide me.
I made a first trip to Rome, planning to film with a Sony video camera and photograph with my Hasselblad and my father's Leica. It was not yet clear to me what to document, what would make visible and tangible what I, and the people who are mourning with me, are experiencing.
Returning to the Netherlands for editing and processing of the material, I realized the dissatisfaction I felt with what I had produced.
Not only had the lack of technical knowledge prevented me from filming with an objective quality, but I had not achieved good results even from a photographic point of view, having had to concentrate on several techniques, of which one was completely new to me, together.
After some drastic events that occurred in my personal life, I chose to make a second trip to Rome, with a more clear mind.
The idea this time around was to start with a more defined production plan, using techniques that are familiar to me. I therefore decided to use the audio recording to interview people related to my father, in which he left a tangible memory. In combination with the audio, I would have taken portraits using my Hasselblad. The familiarity I have with these techniques has in fact allowed me to return to Rotterdam with much more satisfying material.
This consequently left room to start thinking about the shape to give to my project.
After a reflection on the non-biographical aspect of this project, but on how what rather comes out of it is a description of my father projected through the eyes and memories of these people, I decided to use the technique of projection of new images produced in Rome. This will be combined with an audio setup. A confused chorus of voices will gradually diminish, creating a crescendo in the intimacy of the sound. For me this is what I felt and feel in crying my father: pure chaos and dissolves in small moments of clarity, which are often moments in which I remember my father, more or less serenely.
As if to frame these projected images, the archive images of my father's life, which I have been collecting for months now. This is perhaps the most biographical aspect of the project.
I aim to honour my father and bring him into my present.